Dream Diary

edit of a ryou ramiya drawing

May 2025

  • I was young and apparently a different person. It was the 70s and I was at a loft party and John Lennon and Yoko Ono were there. Yoko didn't seem to like me. I danced and eventually Yoko danced with me and seemed to approve of me then. Then, I asked them why the music stopped and it was dawn. Everyone left the loft except for me, and then I was myself in real life. My friend J was there and it was their birthday, another acquaintance A came by and we both fell asleep on big soft couches.
  • A's friends G and S worked "down at the docks" - showed up and witnessed some kind of FF7 battle in real life
  • an art gallery pop-up being held at and abandoned McDonalds - stage show involving a cat jumping through doorways with an announcer...then, a gigantic room with a pool, a child kept trying to throw a toy in the deep end to make me go after it but I knew I couldn’t swim that deep water - mean girls trying to get me to say I liked some model guy when I didn't...
  • Talking to grandmom, I commented that the new floors looked nice in her house... she was skeptical and I joked that I was not wearing my glasses
  • going through a pink metal detector so i could enter some kinda Japanese museum/stationary gift shop
  • Trying to get dressed for work, new jeans turned into weird bondage pants with flared legs - I was confused because they had been regular jeans at first - a custoemr from work was there dressed in like Bo peep/Alice In Wonderland clothes
  • Walking along near the school at night. I was on the phone with my family when a bunch of military planes flew past me and in the distance I saw bombs being dropped. Dad told me to to get inside the school but there was an air of hopelessness as i crouched to the ground
  • I turned into a tiny Sim, giant hands placed a big console and I climbed it to jump on a button to launch a program
  • Handing L her coat and purse, I kneeled like a knight for some reason
  • A installing street lights to make the streets brighter at night just for me
  • Cafe where the woman who owned it kept agreeing and being nice but giving us the wrong items to a ridiculous level
  • Public bathroo maze - felt like backrooms

April 2025

  • In like a Target parking garage car elevator. The elevator malfunctioned and dropped the car onto the sales floor. Jennifer Coolidge was the target manager who scrambled to see if we were ok
  • A showing me a weird mobile game where there were like, disembodied zombie fingers moving around on screen and it had something to do with learning math. Then, in Hot Topic wih A looking for a gift for G and decided on a big resin bowl of ramen...Then, Titanium Daydream but it was like a survival horror game with a lot of Silent Hill type of gore.
  • There was some kind of emergency situation with the air being slowly poisoned...my family all got in a car but my sister wouldn’t come because she was meeting Bruce Springsteen at a "Milk Festival"...
  • Working at a restaurant, it was all the Bistro Huddy characters and I was a food runner and we were negotiating about how none of us wanted to deal with a strange ketchup bottle that looked like GOLB and was floating around the kitchen
  • A small turtle came out of the sink so I tried to make a habitat for it. It was cute with little waterfalls. Then I put on a backpack so I could walk all the way to Washington D.C. and my coworker was bummed that I was ditching work. It ended with me in an Indonesian restaurant with a bunch of dream friends.
  • Birthday party for cousin B. We set up the PS2 and were watching a Sims family on TV. Called an uber and it was a beat up pick up truck, switched to me running through Philly at night.
  • C was driving a big RV. A was dressed in an EGL outfit and Z was there, we went to an improv show but didn’t want to watch anyone. J won a million dollars on a lotto ticket.
  • Vegan activist left dead fish at my job and yelled at me that I was evil for working there (an airport) - I saved a chick from the grinder but cried bc I couldn’t save more. the chick was tiny and looked like keepon robot
  • I was showing my coworkers cats that all had their names
  • Lying on the ground in my grandparents yard... animals everywhere running and playing, a bunny sat on my chest
  • W had a dj booth set up outside Pratt house and was carrying a pink checkbook (like the kind i'd use at my serving gigs) full of pictures of me :( I focused on one photo which was of when I was blonde and in front of some row homes. J was in the house having coffee, I tried to tell him about W but he didn’t care
  • Found a cat in a cage and let him out
  • My giant stuffed snake came to life and was wriggling around the room
  • In an ill-fitting pantsuit, I was at C’s house and became allergic to her dog - got a neck rash, felt like a clown
  • Exploring big discount store, weird shirt and pens, had some random dream deadbeat boyfriend
  • In a band with A, we had dinner at some outdoor restaurant-some girl was flirting with them, A said they used to hookup, I accidentally got makeup on A's jacket - saw a beautiful girl with gold eye make up, she had interesting contacts that made her look like a cartoon with punchy the cat style eyes and our bandmate drove too fast
  • Unbothered about a mansion on fire
  • Singing in the shower. When I got out my sister said I sang well

March 2025

  • i worked at CVS with another ex-friend from childhood, she kept taking stuff from lost and found and was being admonished
  • ex friend M from childhood's likeness at a store - she had her own line of dolls that looked like her, some of the dolls blinked and sighed in the packaging
  • i lived alone in an air bnb in Florida with my cat Onyx, i started locking all the windows because there were signs someone tried to break in
  • new job at L's building, all once apartments turned to offices...someone asked me if dinosaurs were sentient...then the boss lady wanted to take me to a party but she was mad my legs weren't shaved. I had to use some used dull and hairy razor - it was gross and i kept accidentally cutting my legs
  • J addd to the group chat where we all talk about esoteric stuff, i'm texting on a Nintendo switch
  • kittens in the office, a fiddlehead ipa pack, mom dropped off the beer and kittens...2 random girls came to see the kittens but they didn’t adopt. Mom took them back. I called out sick from high school (!?) and A was disappointed in me
  • Godzilla is real and is destroying center city and nyc at the same time?? multiple godzillas? my partner and i discuss how it could possibly be real
  • watching someone on stage at TV Eye - he is acting really snobby to the crowd
  • Antarctica, all people seem to be moving there because of climate change...the weather is nice, I sit on a big with my dad and sister, i remember climbing up
  • i still have a key to my old job at a donut shop, i enter to get something i left or maybe i'm seeing if there's anything i can take when i notice a camera facing me from a closet - almost took bagels but left, blew a kiss to the camera and noticed a sign that said "no sitting" in the cafe
  • Talking to my deceased grandmother on the phone, at first I'm pretending to be someone else but she figures out who i am, i think...we discuss candles, i need to replace candles with white candles...
  • Living with LP and D, and many others in the woods...all seem to be young witches, I'm teaching them...I help F with a large cauldron in the woods
  • at my own wedding, i'm scolded by some older "Karen" type of woman - i don't seem to care. In the middle of the ceremony, M gets up and proposes to L - then, it switches to living with my partner and our friends G and A in a house that looks like my grandparents place
  • living in Honolulu in a hotel, I was a music teacher for little kids...there were pianos on every street corner. Our cat Camus tried to run outside, I picked him up and he clawed my face. Then, lots of fragments - my brother's baby clothes...a drawing comparing an ex to my current partner...the last apartment I lived in with my family...last thing I remember were getting these falafel-onigiri hybrid things at a convenience store
  • Walking a black dog, letting many black cats into my room...some were babies and mom was going to take them to get adopted. Then talking to a random woman about hardcore punk...looking at a big bowl of pens, the song As I Lay Me Down by Sophie B. Hawkins was playing.
  • LP dating an old "evil ex", tried to warn them but they were suspicious of me. Then at my dilapidated family house in the woods...I’m picking mushrooms and glowing berries - lastly, a school assembly where my ex-husband was giving a TED talk about being a tattoo artist (he was not a tattoo artist lol)
  • Godzilla shirt dress at the theater for sale, I wanted to buy it
  • took my iPod and walked away from everyone to listen to music, dropped it in a puddle but it still worked, walking through my hometown alongside the train tracks
  • my partner's birthday party...I collected 4 glasses from my room, ordered beer, then I'm working at a bar - L said she’d cover for me so I went outside. i planted 10 sunflowers that looked like Sonic 1 sunflowers, pulled 2 of them up and then L couldn’t cover for me afterall and FaceTimed me to show me her and her coworker in a swanky office
  • Looking through pictures of my younger sister when she was a baby at a restaurant eating nabeyaki udon
  • eating Girl Scout cookies...bridesmaids trip but old ex-friends TA and LD were there, both of them had bright pink hair
  • Venue/Vet office, I was cleaning pet food bowls...it looked like the old Best Buy break room from when I worked there in the mid 00's
  • A driving wildly in a parking lot - then Hello Kitty Island Adventure characters kept going to Hell, cursed game
  • Eagles parade ?? spray painting green Burger King burgers (like pretty patties lol)
  • a mysterious woman wanted to buy my boss a fancy table
  • some girl summoned a teenage scene boy's ghost via oujia board and they became best friends (this would be a cute comic or cartoon)
  • mom and i were exploring an abandoned church in the pine barrens - we could tell it was haunted but it was fine lol
  • some weird guy in a limo trying to hit on a supermodel looking woman - she kept rejecting him but he kept following her
  • A was driving really erratically and being super unlike themself - i had to keep grabbing the wheel and steering
  • at an arcade/build a bear in hawaii with A - the games were very silly
  • being pursued by some evil teenager - him and his friends were trying to kill me and this woman, i tried to hide her and her baby from him
  • iggy pop walks into a french cafe - tried to order a vegan sandwich but it had a ton of cheese on it
  • mom was trying to cuddle a bear and i had to help her escape from how angry it got (we avoided the bear successfully!)
  • doing yoga - i got very insecure about my body and skin
  • my grandparents house was immaculately clean again and my cousin who i haven't seen in years lived there, they had a rainbow couch
  • halloween costumes labelled "the year 2011"
  • C was djing a 60's soul dance night - i walked up and hit a button and the music turned into nightcore, then we were in a restaurant and the chef of this old ramen place i worked at was there and we started speaking in japanese, then there was a band meeting with S and G
  • it was the end of the world - bombs falling everywhere. people were dying all around me. some would survive for a time but then disappered later - it was one of those dreams that feel very long. i was with my partner but then they were killed in an attack - i had to link up with some crew that was trying to escape and i walked around the wreckage of our house crying. i picked up my leather jacket from high school and a locket with my partner's picture in it. i looked at my guitars and told myself i needed to let go of who i was and try to survive. i remember thinking "i had a family once" :( :( :( saddest dream ever!!
  • bojack horseman telling diane she was pretter in her 20s (shut up u stupid horse)
  • purse stuck inside of a big napkin dispenser, eating charcuterie with G and A, dad came over to say we needed to buy cat food
  • a very wealthy woman accusing me of stealing from her house, i was hired to clean it i guess
  • flying around in a minecraft-like world - some kind of crying angel statue thing was chasing me and i beat the shit out of it with my bare hands lmao
  • trying to hold the door closed while some unstable and violent man yelled from the other side
  • looking for a prom dress in walmart - what year was it? felt like 00's
  • a bunch of bridesmaids hanging out in a beautiful house, we left around midnight and it seemed like we were in some kind of night market with lots of korean food everywhere
  • i had a stalker who kept saying he was "Seiya Kou" (from Sailor Moon!?) come to life - later, I was a suspect in a murder

January + February 2025

  • standing on a beach, a surfer type of guy ran up to me to ask if i could watch his pet lion - the lion was very energetic but unruly, i was worried it would attack because it seemed overstimulated but it was ok
  • i was unlocking a bunch of apartment doors with a master key and seeing news about an election on old tvs in each one
  • my great aunt c was in the car with me and dad, i joined a church with them
  • an old ex-friend reached out to be in a band with me again, he touched my shoulder and i woke up kinda anxious
  • A and i had two kittens, each one was like a mini version of our two cats. those kittens morphed into human babies, one of them smiled at me and i felt very 'motherly'...A was feeding one, the other started speaking to me to tell me what they wanted to eat
  • i was watching myself in a crowd, i was carrying a large old school video camera and pointing it towards a bunch of punks running towards something through a big grassy field
  • praying at the base of a large tree - it had a tiny altar built into the trunk with little birthday candles - someone told me to go to a mountain, the name sounded like mt. "ko-koo-wo-ka"
  • very stark building - a version of 2 of my jobs. i poured a beer and got a message from someone that said "THIS IS WHY I LOVE SPOTIFY FUCK THINKING ABOUT A PLAYLIST" lol
  • studying japanese at a community center/library type of place - there was a big wheel of fortune type of game and i won a tamagotchi but it was haunted...some dream friends (no one i know irl) said i was being boring and we should go clubbing
  • J, A and I had a new house together and were going to turn it into a DIY venue
  • shopping with L - she had a magic lipstick that granted mysterious powers
  • a very peaceful feeling dream, long too: i was in batsto in a graveyard following a little toad around with a remote control. every time i pressed a button, it hopped. but it started hopping bigger and bigger jumps and i started to worry i would hurt it so i stopped.
    when i looked up, there was a small fluffy orange kitten sleeping at a tombstone. i picked him up and he started to purr and cling to me, so i began to walk to look for food for him. through a dirt path, i found a small town.
    there was a building with an elderly woman and a guy in his 30's/40's working at desks - the building was like an office/town center type of thing but very small. i asked for cat food, but they said they had to 'order it from the city and it wouldn't get there til tomorrow'...
    they had some wet food because there were two other kittens there. all of the kittens ate food together, one of them was especially messy and tossed his food in the air to catch it in his mouth. i asked if i could stay at an inn somewhere and they said there wasn't one, but i could stay on their daybed.
    i slept there and in the morning, the man offered me breakfast but his fridge was full of nothing but roast chicken instant ramen - i woke up while trying to say 'i can't eat chicken, but thank you..."
  • i was a cashier at a grocery store and when some girl gave me her ID, it had the address of a house i used to live at. when i told her i used to live there, she gave me a horrified look
  • in a strange little desert town, old west style, L warned me about quicksand + there were toads drying out so i watered them with a watering can.
    also, my little brother was a child and bartending at an outdoor saloon. when i asked for a drink, he held a little dancing anime girl in his palm that was glitching out. also also, at some point i fell in the quicksand but it stopped halfway and i was able to get out
  • a big punk house had a bunch of free boxes on the steps. G, A and I noticed that there were guitars and a hello kitty rice maker and we tried to get them but others got to the stuff first
  • this kinda felt like i was playing a video game - a dragon/unicorn (it kept switching characters) was fighting a kaiju-sized giraffe-centaur-woman thing on a run down roller coaster that kept breaking and so the characters would fall and continue fighting on different levels
  • some kind of survival, post-apocalyptic situation - lots of us in a huge basement preparing to go above ground to hunt for food, my friend R was wearing a very impractical outfit and i was telling her she needed to change because her clothes would get ruined in the forest
  • at a pride parade where there were pastel rainbow fireworks going off, the president came out as a trans woman
  • a gigantic ferris wheel in the middle of philadelphia collapsed onto a neighborhood and flattened it
  • working in one of the restaurants i used to work at years ago, my old manager was making us try salsa and asked if the salsa was a person - would we marry it?
  • at a rave in a warehouse district by some docks - Rivers Cuomo was showing me something glowing in a dumpster
  • M had moved to Mexico and we were all going to visit her. A priest tried to stop me at the border, but accepted my passport. At M's, it was a beautiful and airy house. M and I were shocked to find that seeds we had forgotten about for 6 months in her garden had blossomed into a nice garden full of flowers and vegetables.
  • for some reason my industrial band was supposed to play a show with mac demarco lol and my friend L made breakfast that was like, cupcakes smashed in between waffles
  • my brother was reincarnated into a baby and i had to raise him - it seemed like it was the 90's again but things were off. there were ufos in the sky constantly (why do i keep dreaming about aliens and ufos lately??) and i kept having to evade my parents who kept fighting in front of the baby. at some point i handed my brother a sonic stuffed toy and asked if he remembered anything - in a baby voice he said he heard dad say "son, are you alright?"
  • walking through a walmart with my dad - the toy section was almost empty but there were random tamagotchis strewn about the shelves - none were the one i wanted tho
  • found a letter from chuck berry in the wine storage at my job
  • stuck inside of an old studio apartment that was getting smaller and smaller
  • it was the 60's and i was assigned to be a photographer for the beatles - it looked like a hard day's night era. half of the dream was in black and white! then it changed to me explaining the order of beatles movies to my co-worker R
  • i owed my mother a ton of money (v untrue in reality) and she was mad at me - wouldn't talk to me until i paid her back (v unlike her irl too)
  • i was working in a sports bar as a server and when i went to take this couple's order, the woman insisted i tell the kitchen to "make the clams casino vegan" - would not listen to me saying we couldn't do that
  • aliens in UFO, being chased by drones - looked like tall greys
  • aliens interrupting Super Bowl on TV - big alien head but small human eyes, message of peace
  • G flew a small plane to the jungle where me and him and S looked at plants
  • i was showing my grandfather snake stickers talking about joy and carried Binky outside where my dad was waiting for us, it was sunny in the yard
  • i was in a hotel where lots of rich people were living - all the housekeepers were painting the rooms with pastel sky colors and clouds and i was looking for an outlet