Now!

Almost done with the CompTIA stuff for now - studying for the 1202 A+ exam...as much as I'm enjoying learning IT stuff, I find myself desperately wanting to work on art and music. And my site. And the zine...

Also!! We opened Citywide zine submissions! This time the theme is "lore" - hoping we get rolling on it soon, for now we wait and see what we get. I'm trying to decide if I wanna do a comic, a collage, or make a playlist.

Right now I think my big puzzle to solve is how to balance my obligations and projects and hobbies...there's been almose 0 time for my social life. I do feel a bit bad about that but also, it's the dead of winter. Outside is ice, wind and miserable cold. I think it's the perfect time to lock in and work on the things you care about.

Been thinking a lot about DILIGENCE, about how things don't get done if you don't make consistent effort. To me, the worst feeling in the world is to have a deep need to create and to ignore it. I spent so much of my 20's just partying and getting wrapped up in relationships, then feeling depressed because I felt I wasn't "doing anything"...my 30's have been much happier because I made connections with other artists/musicians/creative people and I feel we all understand each other on that level.

Like, you need a balance right? It's no good to be a total hermit all the time, but to truly connect with my creativity I really NEED a lot of alone time. I hope to "emerge" again in spring.

Love, Lauren